Poem For The Woman Who Dreamed Of Mother’s Day

I wrote this for a dear friend who was robbed of the joys of motherhood because of a medicine she took:

 

To the woman who dreamed

I’m taking a risk

By saying this phrase

But you need to know

I see your hidden desire

The possible joy

They took from you

I can’t imagine the feelings

The years of tears

The fears

The regrets

The shame that isn’t yours to carry

The longing to hear the word “Mom”

To wake up this morning

To a card

A gift

Little feet

A little voice

Long ago you made a choice

To save your life

Perhaps you would

Choose a different path

Now that you know

So I grieve for you this morning

I grieve with you

I sense the child who isn’t there

The void in your arms

The secret feeling of despair

Hope lost

But I also see something

Beautiful and great

You would have made the BEST mother

I can tell

I can see it when you love your husband

When you adopt a Baby Bird

How you nurture it

Delicately

Faithfully

So much care and patience

Despite Hell’s scars

Yes

You ARE a great MOTHER

A mother of many

Many Birds

Many friends

Yes you have many friends

Some don’t realize it yet

Many little works of art

Brushes and paints

Needles and threads

Inspirations of every kind

This world needs you

All of you

All of them

Every heart you touch

Every community you explore

Every church you plant

Every truth you tell

To those who don’t want to hear

And to those who do

So know

Please know

That what you gave up

Gave way

To being the mother of MANY

Including me

So I say

Please hear

From the child in me

Who sees because of you

Happy Mother’s Day

Piano Composer of the Week on Moving Classics TV

I'm so excited to let you know that I have been featured as Composer of the Week on Moving Classics TV!

Anna Sutyagina performed a beautiful interpretation of my piano piece "Secret Place", inspired by the place I would sneak off to as a child on the edge of the woods where the world was safe and I could spend hours dreaming about the future.

In our interview, Anna asked me a number of curious and intriguing questions about my music and the state of music today. I really enjoyed this interview and hope you do, too!

Read my interview with Moving Classics TV

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Pot Luck, Piano and Bingo!

Tonight I had the honor of playing background music at the Arlington Senior Center about five minutes from my house in Arlington, TN.

Everyone brought food along with a white elephant gift, which served as prizes for Bingo. That’s me there on the right being all “out of the way” and stuff.

Everyone brought food along with a white elephant gift, which served as prizes for Bingo. That’s me there on the right being all “out of the way” and stuff.

While I was playing, a dear friend of mine who has always been a great encouragement to me and my music, came up to sit beside me so that he could soak in the music. I feel that I should treasure this moment.

While I was playing, a dear friend of mine who has always been a great encouragement to me and my music, came up to sit beside me so that he could soak in the music. I feel that I should treasure this moment.

Then I had the incredible experience of yelling out Bingo numbers until all of the prizes were given out! For a soft-spoken guy like myself, this definitely landed me outside of my comfort zone. But, I remembered my Dad saying, “Son, enunciate your words.” I know he would be proud. Only once did a fight nearly break out over a number that I either misread or they misheard. In that crowd, likely a little of both!

Then I had the incredible experience of yelling out Bingo numbers until all of the prizes were given out! For a soft-spoken guy like myself, this definitely landed me outside of my comfort zone. But, I remembered my Dad saying, “Son, enunciate your words.” I know he would be proud. Only once did a fight nearly break out over a number that I either misread or they misheard. In that crowd, likely a little of both!

My mother-in-law, who invited me to play at this event, got up to speak some very beautiful words about me and my music. She told everyone the story behind my Now I Sleep album, which deeply moved a number of them. They did a drawing for a copy of my CD, which was met with excitement.

All in all, I had a great time, met some wonderful neighbors, and got to play music outside of my living room for once!